One Day Away

Well - only one day until my due date and I'm at work. I sort of had a hunch that I would be late though. I know there is still time, but I feel my patience is probably being tested. I'm too anxious!

I went from thinking I was in labor about 2 weeks ago to feeling the best I've felt in the last 6-8 weeks. Especially, Thursday (July 17) - I felt like I could go run a couple of miles. I had so much energy; no cramping; no back pains; no nothing. It's really weird. My feet are pretty much swollen all the time, but it's not painful unless I'm on them for a really long time.

I wonder what these sudden changes mean. Some people said that they felt wonderful just before going into labor. So, does this mean I'm about to go into labor? I mean, I know it can't be too far away, but is it going to be soon? With everything little thing now, I wonder, "is this it?" Like last night. As I was trying (very very hard) to go to sleep. I started having those cramping/contraction feelings again. They weren't unbearable like before, but I wondered, "Is this it?" Everyone says, "oh - you'll know!" And, I'm sure I will. I'm just really horrible at the waiting part. However, as impatient as I'm being, I truly don't want anything to take place before the LORD intends for it too. I know HE has a plan - a perfect plan. HE knows the day, the time, and how it's all going to happen. And, I need to be reminded of that every moment.

Plus, I keep forgetting about the 'signs' to look for. One is the hardening of my upper stomach. Dr. Palmer says I won't be able to push it in. The second - is that the cramping/contractions will be above my bell button not below it like they were last night. There is a third sign (other than my water breaking), but I won't mention it.

It's hard to go about my day the same though. I have a really hard time concentrating and staying on task. Everything about labor, delivery, nursing, and raising a child consumes my every thought. My world - our world - is about to be changed forever. It's going to be the greatest change of our lives though.

PROCRASTINATION UPDATE
You know I think the LORD is also giving us more time b/c HE knows we still have some preparation work to do. Let's see -

The nursey is almost complete. We have the crib, the changing table, and the bedding decor in place. It is so beautiful, if I may say so myself. I am an admitted procrastinator, but nine out of ten times, I love the end result. I wouldn 't change it for nothing. I am so proud of the funiture and decor Sajid and I chose.

The only thing we're waiting on (which really isn't a big deal) is the small chest of drawers (of Sajid's) that my dad sanded and is currently staining and replacing the handles. I'm sure we'll get that either today (July 21) or tomorrow.

The Pack-n-Play and the Co-Sleeper are assembled and in place.

I washed some of Ethan's bedding sheets and his going home outfit. This evening I plan to wash more of his things (wash cloths, towels, sheets, clothes, bibs, blankets, etc.)

And, the biggest project I'm most proud of (next to the nursery and the upstairs) is our bedroom! Sajid and I worked very hard in there yesterday for about 2 hours. It is clean as a whistle. So clean it looks like we just moved in. A clean (and dust-free) room is such a wonderful feeling. Now that we've tackled our bedroom, if nothing else in the house gets done before I go into labor, I'll be just fine.

But - I'd love to get our bathroom clean as a whistle. That's going to take some real elbow grease though. And, I'm pretty sure I won't be able to talk Sajid into doing it. Our bedroom was a big-enough project for him. I do hope the LORD isn't waiting on us to clean the bathroom before HE initiates labor. Ethan may never get here.